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Today has been quite a odd day for me... Its the first time I've actually seen any of my "friends" in about almost 3 weeks. I'm kinda shocked now about the indifference I feel now towards them from just a few weeks ago. Like walking into a room full of people you don't know anymore... Exactly like walking into a room of people you don't know anymore.
To Start my lil story, it begins with me going to the "Future Soldier- Physical challange", some thing to promote the army... Pretty much just a PT test is all it was... I GOT to be on the radio! XD
But anyways... After that I swung by my friend brains House (his fathers house) to come into the basement to find a most disgusting example of a messy house. Beer cases and cans lay everywhere ( they're all underage ), cigarette boxes all over the place, garbage up to yin yang, and more HD TVs hooked up than you could swing a stick at with wires running all over the place, dvds and games strung out all over the place... I can't believe his dad lets him get away with this shit... let alone his mother (who has passed away) If she saw what I saw she would be turning in her grave. this was just the first site I saw. next was something more reflective on my own habits no less than a month ago. We ventured into the "back room" where it would usually be a comfortable setting... (allot of weed smoked in there) but this time around I felt very uncomfortable. I just sat there that time and watched as they passed the pipe around smoking a tiny glomp of resin... desperate people... as I sat there watching this the conversation in hand wasn't very interesting to me as it was "stoner talk" being sober for once and listening to it... I realized how stupid they all sounded... after that they smoked cigarettes and continued to chat about... stupid stuff... next we went out into the living room area (what look like a bomb went off) and watched some Aqua teen hunger force... I watched with them, but I was watching they're chit chat more than the Show. I mean... watching this from my point of view after several weeks of not hanging out with them, everything seemed very horrifying to me... because more than them just doing it... it was a look to what I was doing... and how pointless and how meaningless it all was... Wasting time... busted out of your mind, day after day... and doing it in your fathers basement, and your mothers basement who is deceased, and from the last time I met her, she was a very sweet woman. and to see this... omg I wanted freak out and bitch them out on how horrible they all seemed to me. I mean... seriously... I was hanging out with these people... makes me Cringe, I'd have half a mind to bust the cops on em... this is not responsible use of Cannabis. If anyone would need to be busted for Cannabis use it would be them. and I'm one of those people who would like to see it legalized. but ontop of that. underage drinking. last time I checked none of them were 21...
after about 30 minutes of watching stupid cartoons, they of course all got up to leave to do ONE thing... go get food... of course... they asked me if I was coming but I just walked to my car and said "um... I'll talk to you later."

This is really the first time I've had a good contrast to judge if I've been making any effort to change at all.. and boy howdy! I'm glad I'm not doing that routine anymore. It actually inspires me to work even harder than I am to get ready to leave. oh and I'm not going back there... Its just sad...
the main thing is I couldn't get the thought of Brian's mother out of my head... she died from cancer.. and this is what they were doing in her basement... her father dose nothing to stop them, not even out of respect to his wife (oh did I mention they're all LIVING in that basement as well)... I really feel bad. I was just as responsible for that as they were at one point... and I can't say anything in respect to her memory than "I'm sorry" Its a prime example of no moral bounds and a total decay of Family respect. Its something I don't hold to my personal beliefs, and I'm going to try allot harder to never be like that again. EVER.

If you don't see whats so bad about that... Your really heartless and probably just as disgusting as they are... So in closing... Tell me... What do you think about all this... Is this not a total slam on Moral standers. or am I just Social retarded... "no thats cool, thats what everyone does in they're dead mothers basement" *shivers*

Peace out...